There are many times during a deployment that I just get overwhelmed. Sometimes I get overwhelmed with fear and loneliness, and at other times I am overwhelmed with people's generous outpouring of support. However, during this last deployment, I had one of those moments you know will remain with you forever. I was at church and in the middle of worship just felt myself become overcome by fear and worry. I just kept asking God how I could ever survive if something happened to Jeremiah. I stopped singing and just sat down and prayed. Right there on the spot, the Holy Spirit spoke to me and said, "I will provide for you. I will provide for you financially. I will provide for you spiritually. I will provide for you emotionally. Even in death, I will supply all your needs."
I have to admit, while I should have been comforted by this, my immediate thought was that something was going to happen to him. Then I realized the important part of God's message to me that Sunday morning- my God was going to take care of me regardless of my circumstances. I know He loves me and promises, not just in his Word but even through His Holy Spirit on a Sunday morning, He will take complete care of me. I was overwhelmed with God's grace and humbled by his love. For He never promised me an easy life void of trials, but I am assured that his grace will always be sufficient.